One Year Ago Today

One year ago (June 12, 2010) was the second most amazing and memorable day of my life.  The first being the day I married my best friend and true love. The second being the day I was able to tell the man I love, that he was going to be a daddy.  It was a very random thing.  I had just finished my final on that Saturday and was driving home when it dawned on me that I had not started (TMI, sorry).  I tried to remember when the last one was, which was not dofficult since I was tracking everything at that time.  So I stopped on my way home for a test.  I didn't say anything to Chuck, because in the past, every test I took was depressing and upsetting when the outcome was negative.  So I kept it a secret.

We were meeting Deanna for lunch that afternoon, so after taking the test I just left it in the bathroom.  Our toilet has its own door, so I just closed the door and got ready for lunch.  When I went back in before we left I didn't know what to think.  My first thought was "you are kidding me!" I honesty couldn't believe it.  PREGNANT was all I saw on the test screen!  I didn't know what to do, say, act.  I thought to myself, "Ok, what now?  Do I take another one?  Did I do this one right?"  I was surprizingly able to pull myself together for lunch.

I made it through lunch without a word or even any sign that was something was on my mind.  Many know this story, but just to show the importance and amazing way our God works, let me share this again. From the time I knew that Chuck was the man I wanted to marry and have a family with, I knew he would be the most amazing father.  I always thought it would be the coolest thing to be able to tell him we were pregnant on his birthday (Sept 29) or on Father's Day.  June 12th was the Saturday BEFORE Father's Day.  How amazing is that.  I wanted so badly to keep the news from Chuck until the following Sunday, but I just couldn't do it.  I had to tell him.

So, standing in the middle of our living room, with my hands tightly gripping the test results (in a baggy) of course and tears in my eyes.  I asked Chuck, "Are you ready for your surprise?"  And as we stood there, looking at each other, without a word from me, he knew.  His reply was, "I'm going to be a daddy!"  Yes! 

How precious that moment was for us.  I love that our family will have this memory to look back on, I can't wait to share stories like this with Holden when he's older.  Holden is our miracle, he is the ultimate creation out of the love that Chuck and I share.

I love you Lover and Tooter Bug.  You are my world.